I Want You To Know

 I want you to know

~Miss A

No one knows me, not that I wanna be known,

Everyone wants to get closer, but I'm distant, at my pace,

But things come falling apart, when I look at your face,

I'm so mesmerized, I'm not even sure, why it's you, but it's you. 

The someone, to whom I open my heart, where gateway falls,

I take a step, hell bound, cursed by it, mad forgotten,

I tell you things, 'cause stab me, I want you to know,

The things I could never tell, so I let you feel, through expression. 

You once, stood so stong to me, you're rather delicate now,

And to becon I want to experience the folds, your hush,

As pleasant that you sound to me, I find you quite artsy,

And shatters it does to live, I understand I still want all of it.

Let me take a good look at you, I want to memorize it again,

I used to be so scared, I used to peek at you, when you slept,

It felt as if, as if someone was mulling wine in my head,

I felt drunk, I wanted you, but I couldn't move, I just stared. 

It's an artists curse to form your love, portray,

'N heavens sake I was never-ever so capable,

We are together, and the world is charging at a rush,

Yet I remeber the old folk lives, catching the leaves move in summer.

I could have wanted so many things, materialistic, better decisions,

But lord, I'll rather have you than anything, I'm so sure now,

Bet in my previous life I had everything, but I still wished for you,

That's how I'm always assured, that it's you that I lack, it's you that I want. 

When we grow wrinkles, and it's a lazy-lazy afternoon,

I'll join you in your sunbath, lay on your chest than the beach chair,

And it'll be frustrating to you, but I would settle and giggle,

And you would have to resonate the same, and accept your fate. 

I never knew that love had gender, I had whatever you are in my mind,

I never knew love was biased, and based on conceptual terms,

All these things that people say, sounds just so irrational,

I wanted you, no matter who you would've been, I'm sure I would've found you.

I always thought, I'm so incapable of love,

And see what you made me, the bottleneck in gone,

My loves flows like a fountain, anyone could feel it around me,

I'm like a dragonfly, and I see you like a night lamp.

And lord, I'm so attracted, something I didn't know possible,

It's been so many years, knowing you now, and I still don't know how it's possible,

I must have also put a spell on me, in my last life,

'Cause I won't be able to break free, from your knot. 

I can come to you, just as you are, and I'll be welcome,

But you still let my little self live in me, and thus I peek,

And somewhere in this cold-cold four chambered heart, 

I find, innocence, youth, ecstasy, and a little something I'm proud of secretly.

We have just so many differences, and I just, uh-

I go book-hunting, find peace in night, cuddle up, read next to you,

And you'll be there, watching news on your Mac, earphones, not to disturb me,

And just your hard on my neck, and you're present for me, how I like it. 

I never really felt, that I was ever, in any compromise,

You know the side of me that is silent, demure and shy,

It's you who sees, that I'm as extroverted as I'm introverted,

And somehow when I'm with you, it's different and cozy. 

And everything I say, it sounds better in your voice,

I've become so cheesy, like all the femme-lovers in novels I disliked,

And the roads I walk with you, become paths of my memories,

Most common things with you, become the most special to me.

💠