Giddy
Giddy
~Miss A
I, don't feel nothing and I
Know this, is dying inside and games
To be played, risky but choices
Are to be made, mistakes are desires.
Woke up this morning, alone with no
Hint of your existence , seems like a
Dire need, but stuck in a maze, for typical
Decisions are to be made, delusional Bokeh.
Lived in denial, but figured out the
Voices chasing my realm, are deemed
Karaoke from hell, missing a toe, a
Mistletoe, would swear it always against you.
Now, I find myself crushed in the heart, hoping
To connect to the, part of the forsaken, but
It's futile to call, for the heart you pushed off
The cliff, just pray for disease, until its peace.
How to replicate all the terms, bound with
A ripple, soft but comes back but in fragments,
And never yours again, slithering n' shimmering,
Makes me giddy, giddy-giddy all day.
Do I deserve it, I ask myself often, and none
Of my facets said yes, a single time, but to know
The truth is like to find a mirror, true to self,
So poor. And so I know it too not to call.
They said praying is the key, to send love from
Afar, so I did it in my head, although I don't see
No god. They said if you had religion, screams
Would escape the walls, do I lose self for you all.
So I, describe this as a lie, cause I'll be who I'm
Bad with choices, evil invoices, a chaos you say,
I'll be the root causes. But, there's a but. I saved,
All the calm and gave you away. It's you.
So these mountains, surround your name,
When I called for my own. I'm bespoke with,
Details, how the merge with the catastrophe in
The loose ends of the material they create.
I wish I could be silk, but the best I can be is
Sequin, I wish I could be strong, but what tore
Is the slim, the hazy texture I found with the
Bitter, has made me giddy, in hopes to hear.
Wishing to hide in your lap, to close the heavy
Eyelids and to find the Labrinth, waiting
But it would never be there, for I am a killer
Of the womb filled with ideas, its drowning.
Used to talk about premises, strange
Still don't know my name, just gliding and
Chasing the sweet princess, became a queen
In the realm of who's next. Sorry no one.
Nalayak
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