Spectator

Spectator

~Miss A

I pin the midst of searching beautiful wonders, the dark night set ablaze with fireworks,

I tend to see how bright my life glows, the colors a contast to the twinkles. 

A humble wish to tend to your wounds, a secret trail to hide in your arms,

I wish to be blind of everything, when I'm pretty much nothing but hearing your sound. 

I don't know how to write a worthy story, but you shall know about the most vital arcade,

The plot twists of all passages of the rat hole, the main character I revolve around. 

You my love, my worthy king behold, for I'm coming to you with crests of love and passion,

You my lord, cuddle me in your space, when I'm down and enlighten me up with your face. 

I can't begin to name, all of the parts of yours that I love, but sure I can tell you what I hate,

I try to find ways to mend for all of it, so with me please be a little more considerate.

I hate your eyes when you're crying inside and won't let me know that state,

I hate your tongue with which you lie that you are fine, when you are not, cause of my mistake.

And above all I hate is to be so far from you, on a daily basis,

It all triggers my heart like poisioned blood, until once I see you and set in a daze. 

How did a precious flower, so beautiful and rare fell from the heaven?

Covered in dew and bejeweled with lucious scent, I'm a maiden. 

I would like to wash you up, wipe you down, and keep staring for hours,

I keep getting puzzled by such ferocious beaty, so much I believed in wizards. 

For it must be a spell, that you cast on me, that I forget the diffrence between reality and dream,

I moulded you with meticulous precision, in a fantasy art for years, and you started moving. 

Came to me, gave me your hand to hold, laid out your heart, to be tested in any way possible,

I promise I never played with it, took it so lightly or mishandled it in any sort of way agreeable. 

But I do know, I bruised it somewhere and the marks hurts me more than it ever could to you,

Cause I cannot afford the idea of having it pain you inside, regardless I'll sign the LOU. 

Give me a story, I will keep it in my heart,

Rethink about it, everytime I'm finding stealth

All your trebbles are memorized in my brain,

I'm a picky eater, but a total casual of your moves.

I could locate the bone, if I would need to without thinking twice,

I know I cannot always be the best, buy I try to be nice.

I know the points that makes you enigmatic,

I know the points which makes you snort putrid.

I couldn't care any less, loving you made me realise that pain I gave others,

So now I know, the hollow smile and the eyes filled with so much of heaviness.

As if they have a world of its own, I see the galaxy, I can see the stars,

And everytime we meet, you promise me to give a though the space. 

But everytime I try to take a deep dive, I sence there's a dearth in this portal,

I try to find you more, and I keep looking into this mirror. 

The chilling melody of chaos I like to dance on, is deafning to you,

Seems like you can't notice, the lucid dream I'm falling into. 

I tend to forget, the world and the environment beside me,

When I'm with you, I am completely, incandescently full of you.

So full, so warm, that even the extremely detested place would turn a wonder,

It makes me want to run to you, and hide in your arms, far from the lightning, hearing the thunder. 

I sometimes try to define that aura that you exhibit; you shine every color, 

But I see you indulging more in fingerlicking browns and mesmerizing creame.

Makes me question my intellect a bit, makes me want to do uncanny, crazy and unreasonable things,

Tells me to kiss your eyelids, sumdge my fingerers over the nape of yours.

Saw a bad dream, so bad it shook me up,

It wasn't bad because of the ghosts, it felt scary beacause I saw you in trouble.

And that's no brainer, in a moment my heart popped,

I can't take the heartbreak of losing you even in a joke. 

For you presence made the understand the meaning of love, and I associate it with you,

I never cared much in my life, neither money nor stones, but I found real treasure in you.

I have been hurt in various disciplines, but I understood pain by the thought of you being hurt,

I got to know about expressions and understood what they meant by a good actor.

But I, will be a spectator for your journey in your life,

I will watch you like the biggest fan alive on the planet.

I have caught your habits, I harmonize with you without even noticing,

The spectators judging us will not understand anything, but love there.

They will ask for good fortune, and the bonding between us in secret,

See us an an example, turning envious, when we are just respecting each other.

I wish to see the reflection of the universe, stars shining bring in your eyes,

I wish to take a closer look, discard earnest modesty and chant you. 

💜